3 years ago
How much is an innocent life worth?
How much is an innocent life worth?
Romans 8:28
This is what I experienced and learned while attending RFA Church for one year:
1) Serving. I felt called to serve during a vulnerable time in my life. Personal information given to those in leadership positions was twisted and used as leverage to gain business donations and greater influence within and outside the church organization. Irony not lost that actual profit was made from the donation of my time.
2) Spiritual Health. Being new to the area, I was especially impressed by how friendly folks appeared to be. I wasn t on guard. I wasn t looking for ulterior motives, envy, deception, ______. Deliberate attempt to destroy a life? For earthly gain? A social worker was even surreptitiously deployed by the pastor s wife in an attempt to diagnose me. I am someone with no history of substance abuse or mental illness of any kind.
3) Church Programs. I was surprised when a person s cell phone lit up in recording mode during a Cafe 242 table conversation. The person recording (without anyone s permission), was close to church leadership. I knew that the buildings were full of surveillance features for safety, control, and OBSERVATION purposes; however, it didn t occur to me that conversations in these type settings could also be recorded. I sincerely hope they don t have folks recording conversations in more intimate settings like Celebrate Recovery or Elder Prayer Nights.
4) Church Politics. While serving, I felt pulled into a power struggle by three individuals that included staff members. I did my best to navigate the untenable situation-consistently given conflicting information, sprinkled with flat out wrong instruction. I should have left much sooner than I did.
Despite these difficult lessons, I still feel that the Holy Spirit led me to this Church. The Spirit s presence was palpable every time I walked through the doors.
The overall experience forced me to WAKE UP to many truths that can be found in both non-secular and secular organizations:
1) Always Listen To Your Gut. Even if you re in a vulnerable place, TRUST yourself.
2) Be Aware. Some people in leadership (Elders, Pastors, Staff, ______), especially those who are trying to hold on or vying for greater position/status, thrive on control. They are the ultimate puppet masters. I no longer have any ill will toward the pawns they used to spread false rumors in an attempt to discredit me.
3) Guard Your Heart and Use Wisdom. A church setting and experienced individuals can make one feel safe, especially during times of hardship. Disclosing the wrong thing to the wrong person can do tremendous damage to a life. Remember, even at church there are predators who will attempt to EXPLOIT you.
Matthew 13:24-30
4) Use Your Voice. You re NO LONGER a victim when you choose to speak up and tell the truth about your experience. You are a person worthy of respect and dignity no matter your background or current/past hardships. Develop your RELATIONSHIP with Christ for strength and perseverance during this time.