when I stepped my feet God protect me and be diyah...

when I stepped my feet God protect me and be diyah ... maybe during this time we only disturb you but on the other hand we want your guidance tuHan ... only words that we can make and can not do it in my khdpan and diyah ... then mhn your guidance oh allahh ...
in this life I am only bth dyah who can make me happy ... but what Z did was not in line with what I had hoped for all this time all I had hoped for was to believe in my Lord and stay away from everything ... but what I did now and yesterday, , not according to my expectations ,,,
on the other hand I want to forget what passed, but it's not as easy as what I think, instead everything will turn into heels if someday I can only do what I'm doing now ... all only animal instincts, no common sense, even negative thoughts and such insomnia becomes normal things for me but after dyah forbid ,,, I reduced it and never mem
do it God willing !!