As a former EMT I rarely speak I'll of an ER; I un...

As a former EMT I rarely speak I'll of an ER; I understand staff pressures, but my current doctors are horrified.
Two years ago, I walked in with my abuser after not sleeping for a week. I had suddenly developed a fear of sleep. I told the ER staff I was suicidal, plans and means. After my partner left, I said I was being beaten.
The social worker said I was fine, I should be nicer to my abuser, and I had no real problems.
I said I sleep with a loaded gun and he said maybe my male partner should be in charge of it.
I was released, alone, immediately started walking into traffic.
Thank you.
I have learned about asking for help.