3 years ago
When I made the decision to visit NAC, the only ex...
When I made the decision to visit NAC, the only expectation that I had was to receive a Word that would minister to my needs. The emotional state that I was in at the time was very confusing and consuming. Prior to joining I had this encounter that ultimately awaken me to, the power and love of God. I was already an Evangelist and was already living a life aligned with the Word of God,- but what I experienced was life altering. This may sound a little weird, but have you ever been in search of something and had not a clue of where to look because in all honesty you didn't know what to look for? Well, in one service, I was thinking about the things that happened to me in my life and suddenly Pastor Jeff said, "some of you have gone through some things that you should have sought therapy for." At the moment that he said therapy, I felt the intense emotional pain hit my chest so hard that my knees literally gave out. I felt the overwhelming surge of emotions that was present when the Detectives informed me that my mother was murdered. My soul took up this wailing of a cry and the pressure I felt in my heart left. Needless to say I went down to the alter and when I walked away- I felt something detach from me. I didn't know what it was, but I felt so different.
The next day I called a few of my therapist friends to talk about this encounter. Everyone was so eager to learn what had left. I closed my eyes and shared the experience and before I knew it- I was in the parking lot at work crying. I realized that the emotional pain from my Mom's death had attached to me and just became a part of my way of life and when I recognized that the pain was gone; I couldn't believe that I was not aware that it became a part of my identity. From that day in August 2013 to now I have not felt that sense of gloom or pressure in my heart. I still cry but God transformed my perspective!!!!!!