Amber Morse Jacobs

Review of Cedar hills hospital

When I was recently inpatient, I was severely sui...

When I was recently inpatient, I was severely suicidal due to overwhelming anxiety symptoms such as hives ect, was having severe rage episodes and required two different types of a type of benzodiazpines and and an antipsychotic/ sedative to try and get my emotions stabilized. I had an amazing Pyschiatrist and had loved working with him on a previous stay of mine. I was physically attacked by another patient, who also exacerbated my symptoms, yet stayed the course in belief that at least I would be discharged with my medication. I even called the police to report an assault, yet when staff was spoken to the police were told " no one say that" despite having two employees hold me back from charging back at her, and numerous cameras. As a survivor of lifelong abuse, I was trying to advocate for myself by even making that phone call, as obviously staff could not control her from assaulting a few patients., and my experience was discounted which broke my heart, in turn making me more full of rage. I stayed the course to discharge instead of just leaving against medical advice, as when you do so you are discharged without your medication. The whole point of my stay was to get stabilized on medication for my anxiety and was finding it difficult to get appointments and be prescribed outside of the hospital. I was told ' I was making bad decisions" when I was ripping paper and screaming trying to get out my frustration instead of self harming. I hadn't self harmed since I had been there before. I had my personal belongings taken away " for safety" despite having blankets in the room if I was to try anything. After spending most of last year homeless and losing my belongings, this set me over the edge even more so. Definitely not therapeutic. As a matter of fact, my last stay there, they just dropped me off on the street downtown, knowing I had nowhere to go. The doctor who discharged me ( I was so excited to leave!!), was not my normal doctor and discharged me with all meds EXCEPT the anxiety/ agitation meds, and even my muscle relaxers for the pain of the panic attacks. I felt even more hopeless after leaving and trying so hard to be sober and not self medicate, take the correct avenues, ect just to have been further traumatized. Still am suffering. Don't go here. Some of the staff is amazing, but this experience was heartbreaking.