Hi I want to check my self in somewhere but I've b...

Hi I want to check my self in somewhere but I've been reading these reviews and I'm scared now sometimes I wanna die sometimes I dont and I don't understand what's going on inside me I feel dead but I have a life a job kids I don't want to be stuck in there for weeks like people are saying but I think it's time for me to get some help I need it I don't have family I just left a 20 year marriage and I feel empty lost and I've never felt this alone in my entire life ai fear I might really kill myself one day I just want someone to tell me what's wrong with me and fix me I need to tell someone Everything so they can helpw me