I was a patient and I don't remember my stay becau...

I was a patient and I don't remember my stay because I force myself to suppress them memories to the point where I only remember Two things clearly. I remember my first night now I screamed and cried myself to sleep I was forced to go there NOTHING WAS EXPLAINED TO ME NOBODY TOLD ME WHY I WAS THERE I THOUGHT MY PARENTS WHERE ABANDONING ME!!!!!!!!!!! The next thing I remember clearly was my last day there one memory I have was of a girl who I knew who I considered a friend was strapped to a bed with the door wide open. They left the door open making it so ANYONE WALKING BY COULD SEE HER!!!!!!! Now your probably thinking what I was put in there for? A damn misunderstanding that my elementary school put out of proportion. It was there they found out I didn't have ADD yes and it was that we found out I had depression and anxiety however there was one mistake they made that ruined my life afterwards. They said I had ADHD. ADHD something that my anxiety could have caused similar symptoms to. ADHD that followed me into my middle school years ADHD that put me on so many drugs that the size of the pill no longer is a problem ADHD which in the recent years of my life was taken away from my medical records. I suffered for 10 long years and one of the darkest moments of my life is there AND IT IS RIGHT UP THERE WITH MY GRANDMOTHERS MURDER AND MY BEST FRIENDS SUICIDE!!!!! Now I'm going to tell you things I don't remember things my parents told me that I have read from the documents. I apparently shut down after I was placed there I clammed up like a shell scared to come out. Apparently they didn't like that. Apparently since I wouldn't talk I shouldn't have eaten at much as the others. My father who my mother had to remove wrote them a note expressing his anger at the way I was treated. Not only that but there where other instances like how they always tried to cut my time short when I got to call home which were set during school hours times when my siblings where still in school and my father was still in work. My parents would pull my siblings out whenever they could and my dad would take the night shifts just so he could talk to me and it was usually met with my struggling to keep my time sometimes they never let me call home. They neglected me destroied me my own mother said I changed so much those few months I was there and it wasn't for the better. My question is however is why didn't they make it so my anxiety and depression was first and foremost? Some of the exercises for both anxiety and depression are similar to ADHD so why? They made me even more behind mentally then I already am I struggle to keep up with my classmates to hit the milestones they have yet I am still behind. I was neglected and I am only now healing I am 16, been suicidal since 6ths grade, and have had to get stitches the first time I had an anxiety attack because I ended up hurting myself and it's only now nearly 1 year ago that I am getting proper help because of that scar the left on my medical records that EVERY DOCTOR I HAVE EVER HAD HAS SEEN!!!! IT IS BECAUSE OF THEM THAT I AM TERRIFIED AND AFRAID AND NOW I AM GETTING HELP BECAUSE THEY HAVE SCARRES MY RECORDS THEY HAVE RUINED IT SO I WILL ALWAYS MISTRUST DOCTORS THEY HAVE RUINED IT SO I CAN NEVER EVER BE NORMAL I WILL ALWAYS CARRY THESE SCARS THEY WILL FOLLOW ME INTO ADULTHOOD AND GUESS WHAT NO AMOUT OF MEDICINE NO AMOUNT OF THERAPY WILL EVER IN A MILLION YEARS HELP ME GET THROUGH ALL THE PAIN AND SUFFERING YOU MONSTERS HAVE PUT ME THROUGH!!!!!!